havent updated in a while but nothing too much going on...

summer is almost over and im so excited that i get to go to the kenny chesney concert thursday and then we're going to florida in august im sooooo excited...

im sad that this is gonna be my last semester with tiff though cuz shes graduating in december...i love her and im gonna miss my bestest!! but im starting to get excited about school starting...

anyway i think it might be bedtime..who knows

mood: chipper

by the way happy easter...

anyway i know i just posted but i just read all of my old journals and i just realized how sad and pathetic i am sometimes...anyway back to baton rouge later today and then three weeks of class and then finals...

perhaps i should try to sleep...

mood: thirsty

soo spring break is almost over...i didn't do anything but i was able to catch up on all this crap i have due for school in the next two weeks...it was nice to have a break though and not worry about going to class and stuff...i can't wait until summer and for this semester to be over...

i love it when a guy cleans our bathroom in our apt for us...i didn't think it was that dirty but i guess it was...i just seriously think thats hilarious...

anyway being home for spring break was fun i guess..it was nice to hang out with amy some more and other people but i missed my tiff...im gonna be sad when she leaves me...next year isn't sounding like its going to be as good as i thought....figures....

mood: restless

soooo i have to go back to school tom...i enjoyed this little break except that i didn't really do anything but then again i never really do anything so no big deal...

i really have no idea what i'm going to do next year now..i always knew tiff was graduating before me but i guess i didnt want to think about it and what i would do after she left. i seriously have no plan....i'll probably just live alone cuz i'm an old grandma and that would make the most sense...blahhhh

everything is just soo blah these days and i don't know what to do...i wasn't supposed to end up this way...things weren't supposed to be like this...i just wish i could fast forward my life like 5 years, i'd at least be done school and maybe things would be simpler...

school tom and fri and then the weekend!! i get all excited like i actually have things to do...

mood: blah

im sooo bored right now and i should be studying for history...

anyway, i'm sad that my tiff is gonna leave me next year but i'm so happy that she knows what she wants to do and has a plan...its just sad that she has to go to orlando...

anyway not doing so well on those new years resolutions..havent worked out in a while and havent been dealing well with other things but whatever...

k well gonna try and study

mood: blah

sooo i havent written in here in a long time so i figured id do it now...

so school started yesterday and i guess my classes arent too bad...some of them are boring but hey i gotta take them so ill get through it...its crazy for me to think that im gonna be a junior after this semester. school is going so fast and i dont know whether im happy about it or not...i love being in college but i could do without some of the classes...

my break was fun..it was nice to be home for a lil while but things are just so different there...its strange to have a mcdonalds clothes at like 300 when i live across the street from one thats open so much later and then theres a 24 hour one...its strange that you cant go eat after you see a 715 movie because all of the restaurantS are closed. its just all so strange to me still...i was happy that i got to see some of the people i miss from home...even though im home on the weekends i still dont get to see them..i had fun hanging out with amy again, i really do miss her, and i had fun hanging out with tara and tiff when they were in new orleans...

ahhh soooo tiff and i need to work on our new years resolution...we havent been doing our strip aerobics and im feeling kinda out of shape...its a new year so i have a chance to change some things...

anyway this semester should be funnnnn...

mood: i dont like cramps

sooo i should be studying but im tired and i dont want to study so no big deal...

well i got my new computer...yay!!!!

anyway the holidays are coming up and everything is blah...anyway i've decided that since its almost new years im going to change a lot..im gonna have new year resolutions and i plan on sticking to them...this time i have no intention of breaking that...im just so tired of my life

mood: tired

december is going to be oh so fun

mood: excited

soo i had a good weekend...

the game was amazing...although i almost had a heart attack...im not liking how close these games are...

anyway...i love this weather...i hope it stays like this

halloween is coming up and tiff and i got our awesome costumes...we are gonna be sooooo hott

k well i think its time for bed

mood: sleepy

really who am i kidding???

mood: lonely

these cramps suckkkkkkkk!!!!!

need to get better at giving boy advice for people...unfortunately im not the best at that...

need a new computer too..this thing is about to overheat and shut off but at least im going to bed...

went home this weekend...things were soo different and there wasnt really too much to do...but it had its good moments...

should be studying but i think im going to bed

mood: exhausted

so tom night i will finally be in tiger stadium!!! im sooooo excited and i cant wait!!! fulmer, les is more!!!!

so i know i need to grow up and get over certain things but i just cant...i was actually surprised at myself though cuz this whole week i didnt really think about it and i never once attempted to talk to him but obviously that didnt last cuz im typing about it here...i guess i just wish i could move on but then im scared to...i dont really know why i would be scared or what reason i have to be but i am...its very childish i know and i should grow up cuz im in college but im just being very stubborn

fuckkkkkkkkk...i think im just gonna give up for now and enjoy this year...whatever happens will happen..i wont force anything and i wont really even go looking for anything..im just gonna try and enjoy this year...i figured maybe if i said it more than once than i will actually do it...

more than anything though i think i just wish i could go back to the way things were...i think i was happier that way even though its not the way i would pick things to end up...

ahhhh um just babbling right now...i guess i should just stop...

mood: devious

im tired of these hurricanes....

feeling blah and kinda sad...

fuck this....

mood: disappointed

why do i have to care...sometimes its just sooo hard...

anyway that damn storm better not come here...rita you are not wanted, go to texas

mood: bitchy

im in bed at 930 0n a sat night seriously getting ready to go to sleep...

ive been sad lately, not really sure why

my computer broke so im using my brothers old laptop...i want a new laptop but now my moms like why didnt you just get one in the first place instead of the desktop so im just gonna save all of my money and get one around my birthday i guess..i think if i was really serious about working at victorias secret again i could get it sooner but i dont think i want to...i dont think im ever gonna want to work...

i hate how im feeling like this today..i did nothing and i dont know why..i feel like im doing the same thing i did last year except going out on thursdays every now and then instead of tuesdays at mushroom...

i shouldnt have seen the movie last night cuz it made me sad...i dont have that and ive never had that and things like that are just horrible reminders of exactly that..i just want to be happy but i cant let go and i know i need to let go to be happy...im not gonna be able to find another guy if all i think about is him...i shouldnt meet a guy and then be like oh well hes not so and so so hes not good enough....

im going to bed

mood: gloomy

things are starting to get back to "normal" around here..its very hard to adjust to everything now thinking about what happened...

im glad my family is safe and that nothing too bad happened to any of our homes..we were very lucky because some people lost everything...its crazy not to be able to go back home like i did...its still so hard for me to think about this happening, i know it happened and its real and what all these people had to deal with was so real and is still happening but its just very surreal to me...

my mom and maw maw are at their temporary home now...i feel bad for my mom because she's stuck there and she doesnt get to see my dad too much since he's working all day and night..her birthday was yesterday and i have no clue how good of a day it was..i tried to make it ok, i got her flowers and a cake and corey got her a balloon and baked her a cake but i dont think it was a very good day...

anyway school was crazy today, all kinds of new students and no parking spaces and traffic coming home sucked sooo much..no football game this saturday which sucks, at least i still get to see it on tv but i really need to be in tiger stadium soon...i feel very crappy sitting here bitching about school and football games and worrying about and dwelling over certain things that dont really seem so important anymore..there are people who have lost everything and im complaining about football?? im not even gonna get into any of the other things on my mind because they def arent very important anymore...

mood: embarrassed

things are just soo crazy...thank god we're safe here in br..my apt didnt lose any power and nothing happened here...my brother's gf did have a tree fall on her car but everybody is ok...we have a house full of people and im ok with it for the most part, i wish it wasnt under this circumstance but its just terrible...i have no clue what is gonna be left of my house since levees all over are breaching..there was a shark in metairie...its just crazy...i still havent talked to everybody and i am kinda worried but i know they should be ok...my daddy was in new orleans but now he's in br and safe which makes me feel better...this is just something i never thought i would have to deal with and im just speechless...im tired of watching the news cuz its horrible..the pictures of houses with water to the roofs, i just cant imagine...i just dont think i believed things would have gotten this bad..it could be a month before they start letting people back home..i hope everybody that reads this is safe and i love you guys!! please be careful!!!

mood: shocked

so katrina is probably gonna hit somewhere between new orleans and mississippi...hoping its more towards mississippi...i dont want anything to happen to my house and my daddy cuz he has to work...

we are gonna have soooo many people here at our lovely apt...its gonna be a party!!

everybody stay safe and i love you!!!

mood: shocked

school is school...

i already dropped one of my classes...

the classes i'm keeping seem cool, i have to observe elementary school teachers...

i picked up my football tickets..yay!!!

bought a new router so i now have internet in my room...

thats about it..

time for bed...

mood: cold

im so bored..im in tiffs room cuz i dont have internet at the moment cuz our router is crap but anyway...

tiff needs to come home from work cuz im sooo bored...

not really ready for school tom but oh well...at least i will have something to do with my days now, im just not a big fan of getting up early but whatever...

so i guess i was doing ok with that whole getting over the guy thing but then not so ok...its just harder than i thought..i tried being mad, hoping that would work but not so much...it helped for like 2 weeks and then that was over...maybe being up here now and away from everything about him will help but im just not so sure...

anyway..i guess im gonna go find some other crap to do while im waiting for tiff and then when she gets home we can figure out this router crap...and then eventually i need to reformat my computer..oh joy...

mood: bored music: the rain outside